Ha! The title fooled you. This is NOT about my meds. This is about whether I would want to stay in a made up world forever and never know the difference or would I choose the opposite; wake up in my bed and find an excuse for what just went down.
This is what was presented to me courtesy of Word Press Daily Post:
If given the choice, are you the kind of person who takes the red pill, or the blue pill? Why? When do you willfully do the opposite?
“You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.” -Morpheus (from the film The Matrix)
Background on the red pill vs. blue pill here.
So what would you do? I would argue that I would need more information before I could make a decision like that. I think it would depend upon so much. How do I know my choice won’t bring me a worse situation than I was already in? Could things get any better or any worse?
So in reality there is no red or blue pill. To take a pill to change my reality? I won’t even go there. There are choices though. All the time. Why I make some of the ones I do baffles me sometimes. Baffles my sister too. Not about her choices but about mine. I go around and learn, around some more, learn some more but it seems to never end.
Some pretty bad crap happened to me and Carly in the past year, mostly due to the cruelties and thoughtlessness of other people we used to trust. I really thought we were not going to make it and, for the first time in my life, I was scraping. Not even scraping by. This close to living in my car and I would have if I didn’t have Carly. This close to totally losing it all. And myself.
I had a couple of things that were positive and worked on making them work for me. I had my amazing daughter and grown son, I had my amazing sister Colleen, a very lovely fella, my gift of writing and my gift of honesty and common sense. Hmm, more than a couple.
Without those things I never would have taken the blue pill. That’s what I think happened. If I took the red pill would I have still been trapped inside of that unfriendly world? I didn’t care to explore it any further, thank you very much.
So I took the blue pill and woke up one morning and things were better. My wishing on trains helped too. My dear people/things are still dear to me and my talents brought me respect and time. I was able to discover gifts I never knew I had and how to use them. Well, and not being afraid to use them.
Worthwhile getting here but OUCH when you hit your head on the rabbit hole.